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daniellebrady — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 15:50:16 +0000

i have a problem. and its about being drunk. have you ever just fiended to get wasted? because i havnt been wasted since new year! thats a long time!

also. i have nothing to say… ill post again later

anyone know anything about haking into wifi that has it blocked for mobiles?

bottle of jack

daniellebrady — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 14:28:12 +0000

i spelt soft wrong in the last thing…
sorrby bout that

so me and carmen smoked alot od weed out of a gravity bong, and i was retarded. i dont remember it. at all. all i remember, is talking about how much i love to eat pogos, and how i eat 4 a day, which is complete bull shit. i eat alot but… i dont eat 4 pogos a day.
we also made piza, ab thought it looked like bird poo. so we started calling the pizza. “BIRD POO COME HERE BIRD POO!” “BIRD POO BIRD POO POO POO BIRD POO!”

today we do the same!

sift skeletons

daniellebrady — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 02:31:12 +0000

i have not been doing so well latly. the past few days i have felt so much sadness. depression is a hard thing to deal with. i hate people who talk about how depressed they are, when really, they dont know how it really feels to die, to feel like there is no other way out but death, it breaks my heart, because i am clinicly depressed. and its always there silently, latly its bee nattering in my ear. talking to me, telling me things i dont want to hear. i am going to try and explain how it feels, because alot of people just dont understand. today my depression comes on as a little girl. i feel like a scared child inside. helpless, all i want is love. i want my momto hold me and tell me that every thing is going to be ok like she used to when i cryed. now when i cry, she tells me to shut up, and she pushes me away, tells me she doesnt care about me any more, just because she knows it hurts. i dont let my friends hug me. because it makes me sad. i feel empty. loveless and lifeless. mostly empty. to feel completly empty feel like having no self worth. im sick of guys thinking im easy because im sad. the kind of love im looking for is not from a boy, its from my mother, so stop treating me like a slut because im not easy at all. i dont want boys hitting on me, it just depresses me more, because the one person i care about, doesnt even look at me any more. and when i tell her i love her, she says she doesnt like who i have become. i know. i dont like my slef either. i hate me. i feel fake when i know im not. i feel worthless. i feel broken. i feel a deep sadness that always speak in a low voice that never stops. i feel so angry because my sadness turns into angry, why am i so sad? why did this happen to me? because i grew up with an alcoholic abusive father, and a depressed controling mother. addiction and depression is in my blood. depression: grandpa, mom, me. addiction: uncle mike, daddy, jordan, me. i think, maybe some people were born with tragedy in there blood. i feel helpless. i cant change it, yet every one says i could easily fix things. just go to school, work hard. when you are 24/7 depressed, an hide it from everyone even your self, you get tired, you dont have the energy for school. i have decided, i think im going to smoke alot less weed. it weakens the meds im on. and i just want to be me again. im sick of wanting to die. death sounds so inviting, to just dream forever. the only time im hapoy is when i sleep, or if im with carmen. she is my second best friend, up there with charlotte. carmen and i are the same person inside, she makes me feel so much less alone, and i love her like a sister. i dont know what i would do with out her.

think of the sadest moment in your life. that is as close as a non depressed person could feel to depression. think about feeling that way but worse 24/7 for 4 years, maybe longer. thats how long i have been depressed. and im sick. now imagine you were depresse that long 24/7, and you thought of the years before your depression when you were happy, why cant it still be like that? you would feel even worse. thats how i feel. i think bad to my childhood when i was happy. and i cry, because i have beeb sad so long. an i know it wont end, at least it feels that way. i had first started to get depressed in grade 3. i had to go to therapy, because my way of dealing wigh sadness was horrible, i have only told one person before about it, and i will never tell anyone else.

depression is a battle, against your sled, good vs evil. happy vs sad. i feel like 2 people living in one body. and im trying to fight it. i have been losing.
so next time you pretend depression for attention. think about all the people who ARE depressed. because it kills.

fml

daniellebrady — Wed, 13 Jan 2010 14:03:54 +0000

i feel like shit. urban dictionary the word shit, thats how i feel. its only 9 am and my day is SHIT. im sick of everything and every one. i dont want to be at school. let me better explain.

woke up, not getting a drive to school, its -4 and i lost my favorite mittens. im tired, hungry, and have no money. i dont want to walk because its windy and cold and a 30 minute walk -_- i call sara ( who you will soon meet on a new youtube video ) well text askong for a drive, she never responded untill i only have 10 minutes to get to school saying she cant. thanks for that sra grutenshhdjsjshsshdjfaggot. so i walk to school and think of the best idea for my tech summative (which i will also post on deviant art and youtube) abd then i get to english, the teacher yells at me and says i should go into another class to work, i say no naturaly, i was almost in tears at this point. i say ” if you put me in that room i will not work, i would rather go to the office” teacher said “well i dont trust you blablabla. go tovthe office” office lady yells at me, like full out. so i go into this french class. i hate french. i just cant speak it well. and im sitging here, looking like a fool, angry and sad. i guess some days the medication just isnt enough. because right now, even tho nit much ha really happend, i feel broken. gah i hate that fucking feeling. broken, like i need to be fixed, by someone else. but i dont want to be fixed, well i do, but… i want to fix myself. and stupid fucking life gahhh. i hate it at the moment.
i have mixxed feelingz right now.
like confusion, but awarenss, which causes more confusion, which brings on frustration because i dont understnad, which causes sadness, and then anger. which makes me stuborn. so im not doing my work just to piss off the teacher.

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daniellebrady — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 22:34:43 +0000

so me and sara and carmen have planned our lives together. grade 12 me and sara are getting an apartment together. and were getting a kitten, it will be mine, actually i plan on 3 maybe four but for now our first one will be a girl named tipsey. and no not because of alcohol, its just a cute name, either that of princess twinkle stars. i like that name better.
after high school carmen moves in with us, WHICH WILL BE BOMB AS FUCK
trust it will work, canada is awsome that way, we can get the government to pay us each 300$ a month for doing jack shit. plus money from jobs. we are good to go. PLUS I CAN SMOKE ALL THE WEED I WANT INDOORS! my dreeeammmm! gahh. i will just buy like a pound of weed :3 but for real on 420 we are buying and ounch of weed, rolling blunts and dieing.

we are so excited, imagine living with one of your best friends? like if i could live with charlotte i would be so happy, but she would eventually hate me because i would smoke weed indoors and drink and shes not down with that.

LOLDAY

daniellebrady — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 22:45:38 +0000

i think i had the best day in a long time. i have been high all day, and had so many new inside jokes created. me and carmen just made a long movie for our CHRONICsisters channel that we created.
and it was amazing. we have a LONG list of inside jokes from just today. and now im listening to your love is my drug by kesha, and i just love that song
here is my list. :
pouring snow
this movie like… improves my life
its hot or its not… well no fuck!
snakes and kittens in toronto
“sara would probably put it in her vagina” “the snake?” “or maybe the kitten…”
the coffin is tap dancing
id like to ‘bang out’
and i said one cookie is enough before lunch!
im tiger woods!
i always like drowned and shit.
i used to drown all the time
what the hell do polish people do!
old man sara…
your head wasnt supossed to be lop sided like that… thats what YOUR MOM said.
computer voodoo
armpit stains
im an alcoholic. meow.
LOOK IT LOOKS LIKE TUCAN SAM
we left foot prints of smell…
i ahve 4 tunas!
i have to check my stats you know?
LULZKITTIES TO THE MAX!
you thinkimyuurrrz ohz wellz. fuck yeeeewww mudderukerz! CDB
bring in the ddog and put out the cat/

and now i will explain
pouring snow is from when sara/ CDB text me and she talks like a retard so she said “OMG ITS POURING SNOW!” and me and carmen were liek WTFFF and had a fit of laughter in the middle of the street

this movie like improves my life, i said that on new years when we were watching dark crystal and i was saying how much i loved it and thta it improves my life at 30% or somthing like that, i was really drunk so idk what i was talking about.

its hot or its not…well no fuck! is what sara said at a coffee sign that said its hot or its not and she read it out loud and then like a while later she was liek WELL NO FUCK!

snakes and kitties in toronto is from me, when me and carmen were talking about getting an apartment together in like 2 or 3 years. and we decided we wanted to get pet snakes and kittens

“sara would probably put it in her vagina” “the snake? ” “or maybe the kitten…”
because we were talking about me her and sara living together and carmen was high and, carmen is carmen, shes just fucked up naturaly.

“the coffin is tap dancing”
in the middle of class we are watching a movie and carmen randomly screamed “DID HE JUST SAY THE COFFIN IS TAP DANCING!”
noooo carmen…

id like to bang out. carmen said it…

and i said one cookie before lunch is OK!
from a movie and i think we misheard completely and then thought the same thing, me and carmen are pretty much the same person

IM TIGER WOODS! a random was talking in a weird voice and said that.

i always drown n shit.
SARA SAID THAT LOLOLOLOLOL I LOVE CDB (custy dank bitch. every one calls her that. its just her name) we were talking about burning and drowning to death… dont ask.

what the hell do polish people do!
carmen said about the drowning.

old man sara, we drew a picture of cdb drowning and gave her a beard

your head wasnt supossed to be lop sided like that… thats what she siad
carmen tryed to draw me, and the face was kinda…. odd shaped…

computer voodoo. SAMUEL L JACKSON NUFFSAID!
armpit stains, we were talking about our friend christie “OMG GUYS LOOK AT MY PIT STAINS!” KLOLOLOLOLOL

I NEVER WROTE WORTHOG!
i said that because we were talking… actually i cant even explain this one =P

why are you rubbing your face on me? thats what she said
carmen was rubbing her face on me… dont ask.

im an alcoholic, meow.
carmen said it. for no reason

LOOKS ITS TUCAN SAM!
she said my camera looked like tucan sam

i ahve 4 tunas! =D
i walked in the offic and a teacher i hate gave me a dirty look then said that :S
i was high so i burst out laughing….

bring the dog in and put out the cat.
thats saying was stuck in my haid all day.
which is kiknda fucked up…

ODST

daniellebrady — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 01:04:36 +0000

so i beat odst a bunch of days ago. it made me sad. it took like 2 and half days :\ i used to be scared of brutes but now im just like. fuck it. i can just stick a fire thing on its face and it dies right then. or just beat the shit out of them. and its not even real life. i think i used to get way to into video games and every time i died i would get all upset about it. wow. in grade 8 i was such a loser, best year of my life. i really miss the good old days having real fun. just being a loser and having like… no life. and yes i really do miss that. its alot better then like… getting pissed drunk and retarded, and high as fuck and dumb. like yeah i really enjoy just being drunk off my ass and not having to care about shit, but thats not the kind of happyness i want all the time. liek i want to be actually happe. D:
but enough of that i think im going to write a ODST review, and maybe vlog it? yes i think ill do that today. so basicly first off here is my review:
ODST the 4th halo video game. i have been hearing alot of shit talking about it, but you know what, it gives you a reall inside look at what war is really like, i found it very educational. it is a very realistive view at what the future could be like. i like how you get a look into the personaly lives of the ODST team. i really enjoyed itm the game play was different, and i like the night camera thing, it took some getting used to but i found it much a help to ahve the night vision to find enimies.

aww fuck. i hate it when stupid fucking myspace pages have too mcuh on it. liek fuck you breathe carolina, your awsome and all but… your have to much shit on here. and fucking the maine, there myspace doesnt need to be decked out so much FUCK. so i really liek the song your love is my drug by kesha, i really do love her. and this song is so fucked and cute at the same time. and fucked up shit is awsome, and so it cute stuff. i like teh start “maybe im ganna need some rehab, or maybe i just need some sleep.” yeah its kinda fucked and then its like later on its like… fuck i cant type. “is my life your drug?” which is fucked and cute. ya know? and then its like i dont even know i jsut think kesha is adorable in a fucked up way, too me she seems liek a giant teddy bear, but alot trashyer. oh god. thats sounds horrible, but still. she reminds me of my friend christie. and i am wearing christies sweater right now! funny eh!

pokerap

daniellebrady — Sun, 03 Jan 2010 01:52:38 +0000

somthing about jim henson gets to me. all his movies are great. like dark crystal, labyrinth, and mirror mask.
well any ways im in a fight with a friend.
heres what happend.
i was supossed to go to my friend erics party,
but then me and carmen ended up chilling in someones car.
and yeah it was kinda fun
michelle hill calls saras phone like 3 times.
and then calls me,
and then texts me
and she says my parents are looking for me. well i know that. they text me, and shes drunk as fuck which just makes my parents angry.
and i just said said stay the fuck out of my shit
and she freaked out and said that i was a “dumb cunt” and a “pussy”
well i guess i am dumb. because i dont know about anything.
when everyone who hates her says that she doenst know shit about alot of things and that she needs to chill. my sister told me that shes a “drunk bitch” because she got mad at me when i called her to try and talk about it and yes i was drunk. this whole fight was because she was drunk as fuck and freaking out. i send her one text when im drunk and shes saying im trashy. wow michelle look who the fuck is talking. and yes im angry about all this because she thinks she has big huge problems taht are more important then any one else problmes. the only problem she has is shes an asshole and a dumb shit to every one so people start bitching at her, well yeah, if your goign to go around saying your a “rasta” to everyone when you dont know one thing about it, then hmm maybe people will have a problem with you. sorry to say it, but thats how i feel at the moment, and yeah its harsh, and if she ever saw this then i would feel bad. she also thinks my sister loves her, jordan hates her. she also thinks she has athority over me, my sister was putting me in line and then michelle starts repeating all the stuff my sister said to me. im sorry but tahts rude, your a friend you dont get to fucking control me. and yeah im an ass hole to her, because every day she tells me or carmen that we look like shit, and is always telling me what to do and trys to run shit. like chill your balls, i dont want to chill with my mom, i want to chill with a friend, remember who you are.

lets change this up a bit eh?
so i really like crystal castles. i like everything they are and i love what they stand for and who they are. they give off a good loving vide that says like be a human. its ok to be fucked up, every one is a bit. “trippy” shit is good. retro is good. drugs are good. being fucked up is ok. it basicly makes me feel like, yeah we are all fucked up in some way, there music just brings that out in every one i guess. there song black panther. well i guess anyone who listens to them knows what its about. its just a fucking awsome song. and xxzxcuzx me is really fucked, to it brings out the fucked up ness out in people :S i sound crazy but thats ok. im explaining it in a way i understand it, so it makes it feel ok i guess. the song love and caring is really good too. it gives me a kinda homey vide, like it feels like a futureistic motherly vide, thats kinda fake and fucked up too. so it like evil mom who kinda wants to kill you and transform into a demon. but its a good thing. LOL. and rot feels like. a rotting peach. its sweet but inside its gross and your turned off. and mother knows best just makes me think of my friend sara. which is a really bad thing because that song is about a tramp with herpies. “h e r p e s i can smell em through her dress”. and then alice practice reminds me of me, but i have no idea why because i dont play with dead animals :S. so that confuses me.

also i left my ipod in this guy i kinda knows car a few days ago, and i saw him again today to get it back. it was me him, sara and savannah chilling in his car listening to wizard rock… like draco and the malfoys blasting full volume in the car, and hes like sitting in the drivers seat playing my ds. he got really into mario. it was kinda funny. and i was sitting in the back seat just jaming to 99 death eaters and singing along epicly.

saturdaypeople

daniellebrady — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 18:00:01 +0000

yesterday i was talking to my sister at school. and my friend shawna walked up to me and my sister and said “danielle your such a fiend. your worse then christie was last year!” aparently i fiend marijuana 24/7. but i dont anymore. i ahve been smoking weed at least 3 times a dat for the past month. and now i just stoped. cold turkey. i dont even want to smoke weed now. i havnt tryed to get any either. i dont feel the need. and the past few days when i have been stoned all day. i was just thinking. “i cant fucking think. why cant i think properly.” and then i realize. its because im ripped off my ass 24/7. every time i have spoken to ANYONE the past month. i have been high. i havnt talked to my mom when i have been sober for a very long time.

i have decided im going to live in toronto when im older. its so chill there. really it is. i have been on the sub way really drunk so many times. i have walked down the streen at 10 am drinking whiskey and no one does shit. i walked by a bunch of cops because there was a marathon or somthing, while i was drinking whiskey, and i danked of weed and alch. they dont care, really they dont.

fuckkkk

daniellebrady — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 23:46:19 +0000

ohai its christofer drew ingle from nevershoutnever and eatmewhileimhot. just about the most adorable boy on earth. plus he has gingie ranga hair. which makes him ten times better.
see because, in canada, perfect adorable boys are not fucking real. dont ever move to canada, we dont have cute boys. and you know what. it fucking sucks and im sick of it. where did all the boys like this go? did they die? i fucking hope not! i think i like american boys and british boys. or irish boys, im kinda really into the red hair thing. canada, we have nice looking guys yes, and we also have custy looking guys. not going to name any, but still its true, we just dont have thos perfect guys who are adorable as fuck, and you fall in love the second you look at them.maybe the real reson is, all the attractive guys are older or gay. because the only REALLY attractive guys i know are gay, and lets face it, gay guys dress extreamly well, like my friend andre. hes gay and hes the most well dressed person i have ever met. not going to lie. so why i ask the world. are all the good guys NOT in canada, and why are all the really well dressed ones gay? becuase i just dont understand why guys dont dress well enough these day, american apparel is there for a reason!and alex evans HAS to be gay. hes too well dressed to not be gay. boys dont dress that well normaly. and holy shit, hes unexplainably attractive. his eyes o.o are fucking beautiful. they are so blue. they are like my dads, caitlins and caitlins brothers eyes. really fucking icecubey.
gahh to many attractive people. and so little in canada. so my sister stole my red version gameboy game :\